Did you notice that Claire was born a day earlier than
scheduled? Slight change in plans
occurred in my 38th week. My
blood pressure started to creep up and at my last doctor visit it was high and
given my history of preclampsia with my previous pregnancy, my doctor decided
it wasn’t worth waiting even a day later so she bumped me up to a Thursday
delivery. No big deal, it was a day
earlier than expected and ultimately given my blood pressure continued to
increase after Claire’s birth, it definitely was a wise call by my doctor.
My doctor wasn’t scheduled to perform surgery that Thursday
and I think she knew how unnerving that was for me to have a doctor I wasn’t
familiar with so she accommodated her schedule to make herself available for my
c-section. Dr. McEntaffer has been an
amazing OB thru both of my pregnancies. Only
downfall to our change was that I would have to wait until noon for surgery,
when typically, they are done early in the morning as they don’t want you to
eat or drink after midnight, not even water.
It was worth the starvation though to have my preferred doctor do the
surgery.
I surprisingly slept okay (not great but not bad) the night
before, I was allowed to take some Unisom to help me sleep, which always
helps. My mom came down the night before
and we decided it would be best to take Annie into daycare, mainly because she
naps better there and I didn’t want her grumpy that afternoon when she came to
meet Claire. Sending her off was kinda
bittersweet, it was our last moment as a family of 3.
I felt pretty calm that morning but was antsy to get the
surgery behind us. We decided to deliver
at a different hospital this time just so we could be close to the children’s
hospital, it only took that one scare during my pregnancy to make me change my delivery
to the full service hospital.
We got checked in relatively quickly, settled into our tiny
room (the main drawback of delivering at this hospital is the c-section rooms
are tiny!) and got my IV going and my vitals were great, my blood pressure was
just fine. At this time, I asked my
nurse if everything goes as scheduled, I should be able to have lunch a few
hours after, right? Um no. Come to find out, no food/drink for a few
hours and then mid-afternoon if I wanted to try some ice chips, we could and if
that went well, I could have a popsicle for dinner and maybe by 9 pm I could
consider some pudding. And for breakfast
the next day I could order solid foods. WTH?! Now that was super disappointing to find out! With Annie being delivered so late, I was too
tired to even think about food and fell asleep a few hours after she arrived so
I guess I didn’t realize the whole no eating part would be long. Ugh!
Just waiting around for the doctor |
My doctor was about 30 minutes behind schedule, no big deal,
especially after finding out I wouldn’t be eating after all. Once my doctor arrived, things happened
fast. I walked back to surgery and got
up on the table, anesthesiologist put my spinal block in, which really didn’t
hurt, no different than what I felt when I received an epidural for my previous
pregnancy. Like a bee sting. Laid down and they pulled the curtain up and
put my catheter in. I’m really not sure
when they started cutting but as promised, baby Claire was born very quickly, doctor
had told me it would generally be 5 minutes after the start and it seemed to be
the case. It was hard for me to see her
from where I was but they cleaned her up and did whatever they all do when
babies are born. I had asked to try skin
to skin right after birth. My
anesthesiologist was not fond of the idea to allow this during surgery but I
got the okay to do so. It honestly was
super awkward because the curtain was so high up on me that she was practically
laying across my neck so after about a minute I asked that they take her and let
Aaron hold her. Surgery was supposed to
last an hour, it felt quick and long all at the same time.
Skin to skin during surgery |
At one point my doctor said things are moving along but my
uterus was being ‘lazy’ for them. I
still have no idea what that meant exactly but at the time all I could think
that must be code for complication so I started to panic a little but from what
I understand, they put some medication on it and my uterus did whatever it was
supposed to do but it made me feel off and I told my anesthesiologist that I
was feeling faint and he said oh that’s just the normal reaction for the med
they gave your uterus so that is how I know they had to do something that was a
bit atypical. I wanted to say take the
damn thing out if it’s being ‘lazy’, I don’t need it anymore anyways!
When surgery was over, it was a huge sigh of relief for
me. I got wheeled back to my room and a
lot of nurses were in and out and had our first feeding. It was surreal how procedural it was, when I
walked back to surgery I was like holy cow, we are going to be back in this
room within an hour with a new baby, crazy!
This delivery was way different than Annie’s. It’s hard to even compare the two and I’m
still getting comfortable with the admission that Annie’s birth may have been
the worst day of my life (I hate that it had to be that way). But I try not to blame myself for it because they
had me so drugged up, I hadn’t had any food in 50 hours, was totally exhausted,
it was late in the day when she arrived and I remember barley even being able
to keep my eyes open the first time I held her, it felt awful to have that be
my first moment with my precious newborn to be that way so of course her birth
wasn’t as joyous for me with all those factors.
This time, my hunger was manageable, minimal drugs, I wasn’t too tired
and I was mentally cognizant the first time I held her. I was actually able to hold Claire and feel a
lot more aware of the moment than I could with Annie’s birth, exactly how a
Mother imagines meeting their new baby, I felt like what I was robbed of
before, I got to experience this time around.
Much, much better experience overall!
More blogging details to come… Part 2: After birth in the hospital
(Annie meets Claire, yay!). Part 3: The
first week at home.
Can't wait to read more! I just love a good birth story! Glad this experience was more of what you had dreamed about. Hope you are finding your new normal at home!
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